erosion

Every crevice of my body is filled
Our bodies lay together chilled
The sand feels so misunderstood
You make my wrongs turn good

What should I do
I want to stay with you
I want to make you my own
To never take you home

I want to run into the ocean
Not another word to be spoken
Understanding between our eyes
Yours sparkle so close to mine

The poem “4:50” was made into a song today. Go give it a listen please, and maybe a download? :)

You are like a product of my wildest dreams
You are perfection sown into every seam.
Your eyes carry a loving radiance
It is adoration with another alias

I have grown, and I have been reaped,
I feel with you I’ll grow endlessly.
I feel that sunshine will fall upon my leaves
That I’ll become the tallest of trees.

You are a love who is at equilibrium
Your touch is native as an idiom.
I am comforted by your existence.
Our biggest hurtle seems to be the distance

Paper is the only thing that elicits a smile.

Paper makes people go miles and miles.

Paper floats away and becomes nothing.

So why do we all love when its only temporary.

You are floating

around my head

I am sorry, 

I’m already in bed

The covers hug me 

I wish they were you

my eyes grow heavy 

I’m about to lose

I don’t wanna sleep

I’ll get caught in a dream

I’ll have to wake up

Then I’ll want to sleep

My arms are heavy

when it’s time to wake,

my head feels fuzzy

you’ve killed all my hate

I am happy

talking to you

you are my sun

for whenever I feel blue

I can sadly say that I am happy
I can honestly lie that I treated you badly
I can laugh through tears that I miss you sorely
I tell you that you didn’t treat me poorly

It seems like I breathe just to drown
It seems I love to despise you now
I can say with boredom that I’m excited
I put on my mask, I collect myself divided

I was once restricted 
Though now I want it again
I used to hate this
It still doesn’t make sense 

I’ve been longing to be a slave
Trapped to a monster’s vicious whim
It seems with it’s lies I was saved
Cold, but the fire still burnt within

I am alone
I am cold
I am happy
I grow old

Infinite was what we would’ve been.

Arrow in my heart, pierced through my skin.
My heart stopped beating within.

Oh when you laughed, I couldn’t help myself.
Vicious you have become now
Ended It seems like it did it itself
Remorseless I sway in the wind of freedom

Yearning for the start of my new life
Onward, I’m born again, I will rise
Unprepared for the horrible things you did.

My memories are now a distant scar
Footprints in the past that I won’t ever follow
The sea will calmly erase me
I will be re-made, but will always remain hollow.

Endless car rides, and conversations forgotten
Never misplaced, I know exactly where I am now.
I advert my eyes, because your decisions were faulty, 
Perfection Incarnate, so forgive me if I say wow. 

Oh dear, forgotten after half a year,
I’m sorry it’s come to this ending
I’m Happy that it’s come to this ending
I hope you’re happy with the decisions you made.

We were explorers in my dreams.
I had you, was it really nothing?
It wasn’t enough, for your wandering soul.
You went off seeking a shadow of the past.

I waited somberly in the present land,
Treating every interaction as a gift.
I bundled up through your storms, 
Exploring with you was my reason to exist.

Was the past worth it?
I had a map of those distant lands.
I had a bag full of supplies.
I have nothing now, but your empty lies.

The path I’ve found,
Is unsettling at best. 
Long, winded and dark,
The beating of The Drums of my chest. 


Onward we go, 
But we always end at square one. 
The pain imagined, 
You’re fixated on another sun.


Sideways I stumble,
Still following my path.
Coughing out lost intent,
The tower became ash


When I finally get to where we are,
I notice I’m not even here.
Ashes behind me, and the sun is up,
The moon sheds a tear.

We’ll bundle together for warmth
Even though we’ve become so cold
Layers and layers our bodies morph
Blankets aside, but our bodies rolled

This house is not my home
I’ve grown used to the cold
I’ve grown used to hates you hold
I’ve grown used to being on my own

It may not seem like I care
It may not seem like I give a damn
Time passed yet I still share
You made me hate who I am

You’ve made me learn how to cope
These burdens, the unnecessary load
I gave up, I was going insane
We wanted change, but you were the same.

The cold air stings my lips
The coldness makes me rigid and stiff
Makes me seem soft, the callus on my fingertips
I couldn’t help the fact this cold person was on the top of my list

Where have your feelings run off to?
I’ve been bundling up layers for you
Gathering food, and things to keep me alive
Who knows if we’ll make it through the next night.

I don’t know anymore I don’t care.
I want you for me, I don’t want to share
I want to kill the doubts, leave none spared
Seven months later look how I’ve fared.

In the morning, you’ll hear my goodnight
When I’m asleep you’ll see what I write.
In a year you’ll know that I’m gone.
But for right now, I’m just your pawn.

Hear me shout with your eyes,
Touch together with bodily ice,
So cold, I am wanting your heat.
Through and through, head to my feet.

Insecurities devour me, leave me devout
Leaving me believing in nothing but doubt.
Your eyes aren’t seeing my shout,
The sun is cold, you without.

I’m sorry for always being there,
Seven months later for my Baby Bear,
Hibernation, food, and too much care.
Worries, Insecurities, and life shared.

Everything prepared, but you were never ready,
My outlook on everything; My glass half empty.
After Loves’ burden, insecurities drowned me dry
You’re over him now, but I’m still not your guy.

What is hot when I am with you
There is no cold when I am with you
There is only we when I am alone
There is only you when I am home

I will always be here; inside
There is no death nor life to incite
There is no fire, but my skin ignites
There is no war, but still bones fight

I will always be here; inside
That much I know is truest of true
There is nothing like being with you
There is nothing I’d rather ensure

I will always be here; inside
After death, after my bones decide
Afterlife, my soul will divide
I will always be here; inside

I will be here trying to fill your gap
I will always be the dog on your lap
I will always be here; inside
Inside loves’ triangled trap.